I'm done, I've enough

&I Just Need Someone

Sometime we just have to be as cruel as how they are, and be double of how they are. I try to give in, in many ways, try to understand what's going around you. but you dont seem to appreciate a single shit (: & im moving on now, i dont give a damn fcuking shit to you, you can mix with those bitches as much as you like, fcuk them in hotel a thousand, and million time. it's not going to hurt in any way now ; and i bet your current girlfriends will one day regret having you in her life, just like me (: so sometime life is better off without you .

now i need one to accept me, for who im ; i dont need a guy to call me and find no reason for scolding me, or even jump into conclusion without finding th fact. i need one who can love me whole-heartly, i no need one to give me all his time, but at least be there for me. i no need one who will meet up with the ex-gf and ended up having sex together. i dont need one who can afford everything i wanted. i no need one to bring me out to eat at restaurant. i dont need one to go club when ladies night fall, or when weekend fall. i dont need one who have a car or a bike. i dont need one who will lie to me. i dont need one who will take control of my everything. i dont need one who will never be guilty of what they done.

i find it so hard, sometime all i need is just one to accept me for who im, or even accept how my history was written, and how my past was like. i just need someone to understand me, and to really move on my life happily ; all i need was a simple and easy love (:

i dont need a friends who will be there to be fake to me, and do another stuff behind me. i met into one, seriously and i dont need this type of fakers, i dont need someone to pretend that they are close to me, but the fact is just to know my thing. i dont need a friends who will only make use of me. i dont need all this. seriously i get so sick of everything '

suppose to be working today, at BQ. but ended up i didn't go, somehow, there's ppl ask me not to go, as they advice me to stop drinking and smoking, im half way through of quitting.

went out yesterday. suppose to be seeing sea. ended up when to find xiaoru and drink. singing was fun (: i really feel so happy singing, i nearly cry )': feel so stress up. after that was suppose to go home, and was double stress, headed to Oasis. omg, im loving that places now.

i've to stop all this real soon ; i really can't have this type of life. and have to start thinking what's good and what's bad for me.

sometime, god just love playing ard with us.