i deserve better

:D helllllooooos, im here to update my blogs, before going to bath, do my mask and sleep. is early now, i work half day today, was home at 7.30PM, was feeling rather tired, guess i really cant work so much now, but still i've to endure.

life's is all about moving on, so im not looking back, or maybe sometime a glance. im trying to be as strong as i can, for my girl :D im really excited about Jensabella's arrival, i know her daddy's doesn't, and i bet he dont even fcuking know when is it, neither would i say much, since he show no concern, all he do was, drink, club and fool around. sorry to say, but is th fact) ;

anyway, Jensabella's is very naughty, or should i say active? she's kicking me non stop. at least i could feel her, and it make me happy, have been waiting to see her, this Wednesday im going for my second scanning, and i hope that she is healthy and fine.

many things in my life i've to go through, thinking about how much things have change from a year back. i remember a year ago, i've this close friends, whom i trusted, whom i always share my promblem with and even leaded me to have a crush on, told me "we can't be together, but i promise you, i'll take care of you, and bring you out, whenever im out." this sentence is still on my head.

things changed. empty promises given, isnt it? wondering who i saying, yes, is LiongYanSin, i bet he have long forgotten me, i admit that im a little bit unreasonable at time, i have to say i do treasure th friendship between me and him, but it does show that he doesn't treasure at all, how many time i try to hold back this friendship, how many time you try to bring trouble. but still, i hope you're doing fine out there, feel like ringing you, but something stop me, just hope you're well. i miss your rubbish & nonsense. :D i still care, but i love pretending ;

as for J, i've nothing to say, i promise not to mention him in my blog anymore, but i still have to. yes, i miss him still, but no longer as much as how i use to, i love him still, but maybe my heart was been slashed too many time that i feel numb, somehow or rather. i know he will be doing well out there, there's nothing for him to stress, he's going to ORD, and birthday is also coming, just wish him all th best. i know i've cling on more than half a year, and when time's out. i should leave. im not looking back -

that remind me of my FATTYBOMBOM, be strong, move on, dont be like me, because one day you'll feel more hurt, more pain, more suffering and more suffocating. you must endure, dont give up :D you always have all your babes around you, and im one of them~ i can't be there for you all the time, but at least ring me up, i shall be your listening ear :D

seeing friends one by one getting married, im so envy, at th same time i feel happy for them too :D all the best to all who get married, at th same time congrates to all th mommy-to-be :D

guess that's about all for my post, im going to bath now. working tomorrow :D byes ~