decided to update my blog, not to let it rot if possible. stayed home today, usually i'll be out at this timing with Fatty, at Fajar Mac, but today we ain't meeting, cause she was out with friends, so here im alone, in my room, facing this four wall. many thing going in and out of my mind ):
anyway i met up with Fatty yesterday night, went to have supper, walked around and chatted awhie, and headed back to my place, she stayed over and she sleep and snore so loud :D i went to toilet less than 10minutes, she was already in her lalaland, snore so loudly, and th moment i off th light, th snore went away, laughs, and so bad of her keep putting her leg on top of my leg, and she can't sleep straight, she sleep upper body in th inside, and th lower body on th outside. so cute of her right, fattybombom :D
well, Jensabella is currently 15 day away, it might be early, just like ay point of this two weeks. excited, right (: so am i~ i believe everyone is, except for that heartless guy, sorry to say, but i just feel you're indeep heartless guys. i guess i need to pack my labour bag, i haven't prepare anything yet. just feel so scared, wondering how is th feeling like and blad blad blad... ;
tomorrow is thursday, is another day, and soon a week is going to pass again, time fly so fast, like really fast isn't it. time wont stop for us, we have to catch up with time. (:
J, sometime when i was all alone, i tend to think of you, wondering how are you, is everything going on well for you, this and that. but do i come across your mind? even once? sometime i really wish i could say how good you were, but i found out that, i totally couldn't find, couldn't find a reason to make me love you anymore. i only could find more reason not to love you, not anymore.
i remember telling you, repeating it to you, saying "it's time for you to seat and think what you really want" and it seem like until now, you dont learn, you dont repent, and worst, you didn't change, did you? yes, you're working, you're earning money, but your night life dont change, th girl next to you is always changing, th girl who sleep beide you are always different, dont you feel that way? or did i say wrongly?
maybe by th time you've learn, everything would be too late, really too late. Jensabella's is like 15 day away, and you show no concern, not at all. your son, is going to be 2years old soon, why cant you be better, a father of two. why just cant be far way mature.
do you remember how deep you've hurt me, do you remember how much lies you have given me, do you remember how heartless you were, and pushed me away? do you remember how did you treat me during my birthday celebration, do you remember what did you told me on my actual birthday, do you remember how my 7 stitches come from? do you remember every single thing you've done, do you remember how heartless you were? and all i do was, keep quiet, and still giving you th best.
life have change, you changed my life, you make me become more and more strong, stronger than before, you made me understand what love are to be late, and th best part is you made me think that all guys are th same.
i just wish you will learn, and be better. that's all, please take people advice, stop fooling around, and find th purpose of why are you here, in this earth.
is 2AM already, and im still like doing nothing here, facing th four wall, Jensabella's when are you going to come out, when are you going to lie down beside mummy, and let mummy feel you everyday (: really cant wait to see my princess~
anyway, friends dont make use of friends. understand, i dont need friends that ring me out for purpose. i dont need come and go friends. because i know, i could live, be it, with or without them :D
suddenly i miss all my babiess, all th bugis babies. dear god, pls let me have a smooth delievery. can't wait to go back work, im so bored at home, really bored dead me ):
I sit and press rewind and watch us every night,
I want to pause it but I cant make it stay.
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