♥ Fallen apart.

): im breaking down in any minutes. i dont know why, but there's so much thing on my mind, so much things is stressing me, everything is now hitting me so hard, and im falling bit by bit, when im trying to climd upwards. i dont know who to turn to, i dont know who to speak to, but to bottle up everything inside my heart, can you imagine, someone trying to smile so hard, act nothings is wrong, when th heart is actually torn into a thousand, and million pieces? yeahs im one of it. im trying so hard to be strong in every single things. but, it seem like everything is drifting apart. &is breaking me down...

going to work every single day, just because i wanted to give th best to Jensabella's, just because i dont wish to give my parents any burden, just because i need to have a living of my own. im struggling every single day, worrying about tomorrow, i just wish that everything would be th way that i wanted, i just dont understand why can't it be.

im seriously sick and tired of everything, sometime i really want to give up everything. J do you know how much im struggling? do yo understand what im going through, do you even thought of thinking about th past, and try to mend back everything? i feel so tired for a moment, which i never had before, i feel like getting myself out from this circle without an end, is just like a cycle, running up and down, crawling here and there, and see where am i again, im still back to where it started )': i really need a break, i really want to be alone for a moment ):

you didn't know,
cause you were never me.