If I Would To Do Th Same?

What Hurt's The Most

): was feeling damn down&lost recently. it's breaking me down a period of time, and im keeping quiet, i was been question why im not being myself recently, or should i say for months..

im busy working, and keep my bf accompany, didn't have time to really think about my own problem. hais, well im having some family stress now, didn't talk to my mum for like two weeks? same goes to my sis, started talking will be quarreling and all shits! really dont feel like coming home, hais ):

im going to be jobless by end of Dec or Jan. i need to save money to have at least a daily expense before i get another job.

bf have been down this few day too, couldn't understand what's going on and is making me confuse too, yes i know i love my bf, as much as he does; at the same time i know i didn't want to lose him, i felt total stuck in between, what to do? i just want a little bit love, care and concern from you --

everything is in a mess now,
2010 pls arrive soon.
this years is not my years ):
baby, i need you ;