sometime i ask god, what did i do? why my life turned up this way, i even ask myself, am i not good enough? i try so hard to keep you by myside regardless what you do, betray me, hurt me, make me cry every single night, i never wanted to let it go.
i always thought you will change, you will change, but you never will. what am i still holding on, people say you take me as a sub, i told them know you isn't. they told me he is fooling you, i dont take their words, becos i always believe in what you say, you say you love me, you say you do. just that you didnt know what you want, give you time. everything you say i took your words. did i even say a single thing.
all this while being with you what i get? WHAT THE FCUK I GET? touch your heart ask yourself, huh? you think im not good enough? i give you the best, regardless of what, i was left with nothing because of you, did i say a single shit, i didn't. why you like this? what i do? why can't you just look thing in another direction? why? why couple broke up, they still together? i envy loving couple, i wish i have one too, but i couldn't.
i wish i have a simple love, A SIMPLE ONE, not one with CAR, BIKE or even MONEY. i just want a faithful one, a FAITHFUL one, you know? i want you, A BETTER YOU. not th one who is like this now, you know? why can't you understand?! why you so heartless, HEARTLESS ! i hate it when i hide everything to myself, i hate it when im all alone, and no one to turn to, do you know the feeling? why must you make me cry?
why you dont meet other cry? make me the only one, why? i accept your everything, accpet all the wrong thing you do, accept all th hurts you give me, i take every single thing, i really take, i bear everything, but what i get?!
you will never put yourself in my position, i hate the feeling of having no one. you ask yourself, just ask yourself who wll be with you when you had already betray them?! WHO? i dont understand, who can stand own boyfriends telling people they aer single?!?! SINGLE WHEN THEY ARE ATTACHED? me, yes i stand, because i dont want to lose you. you know? do you know?
my birthday this year, you gave me th biggest give, my 18 BIRTHDAY, a heartbreaking one? shouldn't i deserve something better? tomorrow CHRISTMAS EVE, where the fcuk am i, i lost everything, i have nothing with me NOTHING ok.
nobody to turn to, nobody to share my feeling, lock myself day and night, crying over everything that's gone. . who bother? you do ? i dont feel it anymore. being with you all this while did you ever spare a thought for me?!?!?!?!?!?!
i hate who i have become, i hate this fcuking life, i hate this and that. i hate all the bitches HANGING AROUND YOU, going HOTEL, PUB, CLUB with you. you want to see all this type of girl right?! I SHOW YOU. i have enough, dont blame me in anything, because you cause me to. you know how hurt am i ?
you know how much i wanted you back, YOU KNOW, you will never know, NEVER OKAY?! fuck all this shit okay, what is written here is the fact, get angry is still the fact ok, pls re-read over again, dont you think i should deserve a SORRY? a real SORRY and even a BETTER YOU, A BETTER J ? should i ? i want you, just you. i hate it, i just hate it. ok ? i dont want a YOU NOW. really, i hate it...
can you change, give me a better you? can?
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