I Want A Simple One ;

&I Miss You Still

im getting so lazy in many things, all i think of is my bed. I just want to sleep and let everything go smoothly.

well, im suppose to go for training today, ended up i didn't go, i feel so weak in th morning, follow up with by freaking back bone, is like killing me ): i just couldn't stand straight in th morning. ended up i called up my in-charge, and get nagging, so pissed. seriously, they just dont understand lurhs.

after that i went to th living room seating on th massage chair and i fall asleep all th way till 6PM in th evening. all i do was vomiting, like crazy. i made myself a hot milo, and ended up couldnt drink it, and eventually when it turned cold, when i drink it, and i vomited. shitty right, feel more and more weak, more and more like gng to vomit, asked my brother to buy me dried orange peel (:

feel betterr after tt, didn't eat anything until daddy is home, i ate a bowl of fish porrige, and he promise to buy me mac tomorrow for breakfast. hope my little baby in stomach is doing well, and never get affected by me, i feel so worried. i dont think im able to attend tomorrow training either, im like fainting soon.

i hope August faster arrive, i want squeeze this little baby out, i can't wait to know if is a baby girl or baby boy. but im so so so so so scared of giving birth, i listen to story from different ppl, im so afraid lurhs, seriously im scared of pain ): nobody would be there with me.

at times, i feel like seeing you so badly, but i dont know why you just wouldn't understand what a girl want, i want you to change for th better, but all you wanted was enjoy, if that's th case, how your future will be like, did you ever thought about it? hais, dont make one hate you more, instead make one love you more, can?