I'm here to update my blog, i feel so lost out of no where ): lonely uh. i really dont know why i feel that way. Hais~ i know i have many people arounds me, who still cares about me, and thousand and million time they advice me, i refuse to listen. im sorry, but i just couldn't.
wake up real early today, around 10.30AM, and have my breakfast. after tt started using computer till afternoon like 3 switched it off, and start to rot at home, 6PM went to boil maggiee mee (: after tt daddy's is home at 7plus for my dinner (: woohoo. after dinner i feel so full~ LOLS.
started using computer again, and like so bored ): i dont know what to do either. anyway, no more cold drink from tomorrow onwards, no eating of ice-cream ): i have to stop in order to have a healthy baby uh`
i have been thinking name like day and night, couldnt figure it out. &i can only think of my baby girl, i know im abit too fast, but i just cant wait lurhs, though i dont know the sexes yet, but i have think of th babygirl name (: it will name either Janelle or Jennlika ; chinese name, i haven't thought of either. babyboy name is so hard to find ): still wondering.
i went to read a few story of my friends birth story, and im really getting more and more scared though i still have like 7 mth to go. 3Feb, my next check up, can't wait to hear my baby heartbeats ; guess that's about all.
I think i have to look for job again (:
i know i shouldn't think of you, but at times i find i so hard. i wish to see you sometime, wish that your presence is still around me. i miss you time to time. i thought i have moved on, i thought i have let you go, i thought i could hate you, but then, i realise i was lying to myself for a thousand and million time to make myself happy. but i couldn't now, flipping through all th photo we have tgt, thinking how much thing have changed. i feel so lost, sometime i wish you were a better man ; but you will never be why ?
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