my heart is totally torn into two now, is not going to mend back, you have break it a thousand and million time and i really going to stop all this dumb and stupid action of mine. I feel so much of giving up everything, can you feel what my heart is feeling, can you hear what my heart is talking? can you?

how much chances I tried to give you, how many time have I try to help you, in which point of time when you needed help to th extend I'm not able to help I still find way to help you, what do I gain? when I see things that I like I wanted, I didn't spend th money to buy! instead, when you saw thing that you like I try my best to get it for you though you didn't say that you want it, just to make you happy I get it for you, I don't gain anything for doing all this, I nv wanted you to turn back, I just wanted a little care from you, is that so hard?

to be honest with you, I get tired, but I still cling on, when I saw those message you sent to other girl, I kept quiet, it dosent concern me, but at that point when I saw you sending 'iloveyou' to ppl I still keep it silent I did nothing, I still jokes with you every shits, but do you know th pain in my heart?! you don't know not at all, cos you're just another cold blooded guy, who give hopes, who play, who wanted to enjoy life just like any other player -

and seriously now, all my tears is waking me up, telling me to get over all this shit, about my precious, Jensabella who haven't even came to th world, do you bother?! not at all, since you show no concern than never mind, no need to anymore ; I want to be heartless, like you do, I want you to understand those feeling ; since all your friends dosent know abt your up coming daughter then is ok, I remember this, I remember that, and I remember everything - i'll live a life just with me and Jensabella ;

nothing is going to bother you now, you've never fcuking spare a thought for me, and all you gave was lies, all your beautiful lies -

I'm awake , I'm gonna leave ;