YAWN :0 waiting for me to update isn't it, i know that im neglecting my blog ever since im back to work, but it was because im too tired, it was like really tired, it aint like just normal tired i use to have. I'm working almost day to night, and night to day. why? night time i need to take care of my naughty princess who always dont want to sleep, and make me can't sleep either )'; is torturing me, not sometime, but all th time. anyway, im off tomorrow, so decided to give a quick, short and fast recap about this few day (: I'm off on Saturday, cause of princess, she give me sleepless night on th day before and I'm so tired, im just having an two hour short sleep, and i need to go to work, princess didn't want to sleep at all, she is so active in th night, i dont know why ): but currently she's sleeping so soundly that i wish she will sleep all th way till next morning, and dont disturb me while im about to sleep; so yeahs, God bless :D
anyway, here are PeiYi bday celebration photo, there's about ten here, th rest is uploaded in FB, there's so much that is impossible to upload all. afterall, im happy that Birthday girl did enjoy herself (:
I bet this was th best, and fun night that all of us have. Sort of one baby, as she has something on, and didn't manage to turn up with us, if not it would be more fun that ever, i guess?
Well, good news. Teresa has decided to step up from th circle she's walking around. I've cut my hair short, if you notice on top of th picture, and th picture taken on Peiyi bday. Finally, i did it, and i cut with no regrets this time round, it's a big decision for me, but after cutting it, i felt more and happy, more relax, it just seem like all th burden have been taken away. (even though i knew he's still bothering me.) I just feel that no point holding on to something that will never end, happily ever after.
thus, after i cutted shot, i realise it isn't a bad things over all, so far im receiving good comment (: and i love it, thanks Fatty for th encouragement, if not i doubt that i would cut. I guess, i hope, and i pray that this time round i would be determine. :D 2011 is arriving, has any new resolution now? i've mine now, currently two in mind, i hope im gonna make it, will i?
bought a new book on Saturday, title is This Is My Story, a real life story that happen to a SG girl, during her teenage life, and about how's she gonna stand up and wake up from her fairytale to face the real world, th reality. Don't be shock, i do read book/story book, provided th story do attract me, dont expect me to read those drama and dream story that will never happen in th world; this story that im reading now, is rather meaningful, it teaches about how you could walk out from th darkness, im still half way through th book, i hope im able to finish it soon :D and i wanna be like her. someone who's strong enough, brave enough;
Friday im working th whole day, and due to my tiredness, i got an off on Saturday (: wake up in th noon and went up to have lunch with my so-called Daddy, and follow up to lan to catch up with my sis awhile, and headed to Pending to catch up with Joanne&Hanwei, cab-ed home then to grandma place, fetch Bella home and there's goes my off day on Saturday, a simple, quick and fast one.
Sunday, im working too, kinda bored day, not much people walking around th street, maybe due to th heavy rain, like really heavy that th street seem to be raining too :D LOLS~ after that headed to UpperDickson Rd, to have dinner with all my babies and boss, at Spicy Thai Thai Restaraunt (: not a bad places, didn't eat much as i dont feel hungry, im still on a diet i hope it will be a sucess one. :D
after that boss drive us home :D and here i'm now. Well, there's nothing more to update actually, im going off soon. Kinda tired already, many plan to do tomorrow, hope it will go smoothly as what i had plann-ed.
I got this part from th story that im reading now, it sound like what im going through in my last relationship, so i actually copied it out (: it's rather true, on how much im doing just to make this r/s last, but.. well, or prehaps, all guy are th same?
One who would chip in money to help him tide over his finacial crisis.
One would run all his errands so that he didn't have to fret about a things and focus on other stuff.
One who would clean up his mess and take of him, whenever he got drunk, and should he puke all over th places.
One who would always has his interets befores hers, even if it meant a whole lot of disadvantage and diffculty on her side.
One who wouldn't mind getting hurt as long as his well being is taken good care of.
One who would pretend that everything is perfectly fine just to make him happy.
One who would forgive him always for repeating th same mistake time and again.
One who, regardless of her body condition, would wait patiently for him to be home from NS or drinnking with his friends and brothers.
One who would spend time doing up his room just so that he could feel at home.
One who would worry when he's not back home, when he's not picking up any calls or replying to my messages.
One who would always understand and forgive his actions and behaviour.
One who would give in and apologise first in order to end a fight.
One who can withstands his cold treatment, which could last for day or even wekks. One who would do his bidding; even if it meant changing th contact number for numerous times and forgoing all friends and contacts.
One who always 24 by 7 on standby just for him, without complain.
I dont feel like mentioning him anymore, he msg me two days ago, asking me did i cut my hair short, and well i hestitated, till i made up my mind to reply. but, still feel th pain somehow or rather, im half way through this road, i hope im able to walk out completely, i wish he could just leave me alone.
but with no worries, i would be alone too, im not going in to any r/s; cause you know deep inside me, you're still th one, in silent; trust no men.
gonna end my post here, i bet is kinda long post (: nights readers. im turning in soon.
it really hurts to th core of my fragile bone.
All th pain I thought I knew,
They sank me deep into a bottomless pit,
making me breathless.
I can't handle this confusion and chaos.
I'm sick of being a weak pawn in these games of fate.
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