♥ Th First Step ;

I'm back again, for my next update, or should i say my latest update? (: I'm real tired recently, i didn't have a good sleep ever since a week or two ago, thanks to my litte princess who is damn stubborn that didn't want to sleep and keep crying non-stop.

anyway, life's gonna be better, and im not giving up; there's many thing ahead waiting for me too (: so why live life as if there's no light, i had already choose to walk out from th life of Jenski, and definitely this is my final desicion, he choose his path, i choose mine. if he dare to say it, dare to mean it (: Ski, you get what im saying? you were th one who told me we should stop contacting, and there you're messaging me again; i've removed you from my FB, and though im glad that you actually went to stalk me, but i no longer see th point; im unlike your ex anymore, im not gonna cling on like a four, five years waiting for th leopard to change it spot, knowing that it never will. you simply have to pay for what you own, and i will be on time during th end month, for you to transfer back my money, im rather stupid or dumb enough to lend you money when you were jobless, ohmy i should have wake up from th day you had actually left me, from th day when your ex told me that you were making use of me. well, but is okay now, everything is over (: you aint better than any other guy out there, i know i will met one guy who is true, faithful and definitely way much better than you. trust me;

okay, no more about this J in my mind now, though i still miss him sometime. but what's th point of running around th circle, what's th point of making me cry and not being there to wipe away my tears? laughs, life is never about going around in circle, is about moving forward and see what's good waiting for you (:

i've been busy at work as usual (: no time for me to on my lappy so im rather sorry for my daily readers, pls forgive. anyway, life would be better now, i made a desicion to put my princess overnight at my grandma places, while im able to concentrate more on my work everyday, im rather sad that i've to do this, but i really can't stand her during th night time when i needed so much rest she didn't want to sleep, and just keep on crying till my whole family woke up to check on her; but im gonna bring her back during my off day and will be seeing her when i miss her (: so for th time being it would be this way;

something stressing me now, how many friends would be there for you all time, they called each other babies now and then, in their heart? are you their friends, all sometime, something less than that? no one is there to listen to your heart cry, isn't it. your care and concern, to them is just another lecture section, when you know you meant more to caring them, and taking care of them ;

okay, im not gonna post anymore longer, i need to do my stuff now. gonna take a puff and watch TV with my mum, and get to sleep, for work tomorrow (: night and bye readers.

wanna see how my princess now? here are two latest photo, she is more and more naughty now, but definitely more and more adorable :D





J, maybe life would be better off without you.