♥ One Final Last;

(: I'm back here once again, im so bored now and ♥B ask me to use th lappy so wont be bored. But im still feeling th same way even when im infront of th computer, Jensabella is now sleeping right beside me hugging her pillow, she been sleeping since 7PM, and woke up for miilk just like 15minutes ago, finish and back to her sleep again. she's growing more and more chubby and fat larhs, having hard time carrying her le, anyway tomorrow need to bring her for injection at CCKpoly.

Well, was out for drink last night. Fattybom called me while im at uncle's place and told me if im able to be out at night, i tell her i might be able to provided im able to find someone to take care of Jensabella, and i manage to. So thought that will be heading out to drink with Fattybom and friends, ended up she didn't manage to make it, but i had already bring baby over to Joyce places, so no choice i can't be bringing back in th middle night right, so find my own session. cab-ed to NANA with Joyce and wanting to meet Ahchun there, and by th time we reach was already 1.30AM, seriously inside was damn mother fcuking full, rang Ahchun up and he's still on his way, so call-ed Jason he was at Rachada? (dk how to spell) and we meet him there, it was like 2AM when we reach there, and it close-d at 3PM, so we kinda get turned off. reach there was feeling weird cause idk anyone of them, as ♥B wasn't with me till later mid-night. all are ♥B friends lurhs. so me and joyce just sat there and waited for Ahchun, he arrived awhile later, and we planned to go Neverland, as i feel that it doesn't make me feel good seating there.

So headed to Neverland first with Joyce and Ahchun while Jason will later on catch us up. Neverland was flooded just like how NANA was, and they told me there's no seat, and we notice a few sofa seat, and we definitely request for that isn't it, so we manage to get sofa seat by opening two martell, and well left half bottle balance there now. LOLS~ been drinking almost 3time straight in a week le siahs, think i will soon faint. ♥B came later on was like abt 4.30AM liao lurhs, he was out with his friends gambling, and i knew he lose alot. Jeremy came to look for joyce when we reach Neverland in less than 30mins, end of th day Jeremy send joyce home, and of cause send me and ♥B home too (: thanks for th ride anyway.

♥B stayed at my places till morning and headed back home, after he headed back home, Joyce reach my places with my little princess, and my dad bought her out to his working places while me and Joyce headed to Fajar for breakfast, and home with mum's breakfast too.

stay-ed home all th way till now, guess im rotting lurhs ): ♥B not meeting me today, as he's going out with friend shall wait till tomorrow to see ♥B le. J msg me today, and his message was like a weird and random.

J: I kinda miss u..
Me: what reply you want from me?
J: I donno iam confused..
Me: alright.
J: Tat time i saw u and her made me wonder
Me: do you want me to tell you what i want?
J: Yes
Me: (my feelings dead towards him, and i love my bf)
J: Okays thats for telling me th truth..
Me: I had already made it clear, on th day i cut my hair im starting afresh.
J: All the best to both of us.. =)) remember this always.. Dont turn back..
Me: ^^ I never will.

I finally made it, it really prove how dead my feeling has towards him, how many people really trust that my feeling for him has long gone.

so bored, ♥B also dont know doing what, texting with him now, gonna see him tomorrow (: life would be better this way, going back to work on Tuesday, like well gonna be a good one, im so tired of staying home doing nothing, heading back to work would be better i guess, Valentine day coming, what present shold i get for ♥B? any idea?

♥J.C.S.Y, th love risk.