i've deleted th previous post, and decided to give a long update now (: im thinking what to do every single day, when i wake up. past few day have been watching wrestling. i know that's not what i should be watching, but im really bored and dont know what to do ): yesterday started watching 换换爱(Why, Why, Love) and now im watching the last disc. what to do now?
after this post and finish watch the show, im turning in. i have to wake up early tomorrow, im going out to Woodland with my mum. and later part, will be having family dinner, celebrating my grandfather birthday's =D guess it will be a tired day for me. hais ~ but im hoping to get a job soon, can't be lying down at home, waiting for miracle anymore.
everyone is moving on, one after another, i wonder how about him, did he get a new girlfriends? sometime i feel really down, missing him is the worst thing, but the misses i have for him, slowly, slowly getting lesser, is th fact no one can replace him. but i no longer clinging on anymore ): i hope he is doing fine, but i guess even if he have a girlfriends, i wouldn't know either. it has been like a more than a week or two didn't contact him, or even know what's he doing. sometime i wonder why do i still bother uh, but the answer was obvious, i love him still.
follow up check up, next Wednesday, i keep feel bad. i dont know why, i hope baby is fine. is like almost 4 month lerhs, hope everything will go smoothly. soon i will know is a baby girl or boy lerhs (: hais, check up expense is going higher. baby expense is another thing. everything is coming, he's enjoying. no one is there to give me any support, family is there. i know. but i still need his support. really badly ):
there's ppl waiting, waiting for me to give them an answer, regardless what they say, i can't trust any words. because certain guys is just going for SEX? isn't it. life to them, are SEX. love to them is also SEX. wth~ what's all this, they will only make me feel they are born the same, and only one words can describe. "bastard" =D im not better either. but at least i know how to show what love is.
so bored, i have to admit, im having bad temoer, so hard to please now. omg, i dont know why im like this now, i started getting angry with things i shouldn't. sometime over small little thing i will start quarreling. really dont know what's wrong, i try to control. but i find it so hard. is all pregnant girl like this? hais ~
i miss you lips, touching mine.
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